This was the hardest week I’ve faced in a long time. I quit smoking Wednesday at 12:03. I still have a half empty pack of cigarettes sitting at my desk, but I’m not going to smoke another cigarette. I’m intentionally keeping them close at hand as a practice of will power. When my cravings get bad I’m able to look at the pack and know I can have a cigarette, but then I remind myself if I do smoke I’ll have to go through withdraw again. The strategy has been working thus far.
I managed to write every day, but not the 2,000 words I wanted. I could focus for the first hour or so in the morning when I woke up, but after that the cravings became to intense for me to focus on writing. It’s been hard to creat while my mind is thinking non-stop ‘smoke!’ I’ve been able to edit some what as well. I’m over half way through the novel, and will finish before the end of the month. I found editing was easier for me to do when the cravings were bad, but even then the cravings eventually got the better of me.
I’ve spent most of the past four days sleeping, reading, and watching TV. I’ve basically done everything I could to distract myself from the constant desire for a cigarette. Today was a little better than yesterday, which was about the same as the day before. I think tomorrow or the next day I’ll be able to move forward and be productive. My hope is that by the end of the week my cravings will be gone, or at least rare. Right now cravings still hit me like an attack and I’m having to sit down and chew gum while the tension in my chest subsides.
I’m optimistic about next week. It’s going to be the most productive week I’ve ever had, and by the end I’ll be ready to publish for next month. I’m anxious, excited, and terrified.
Goals From This Week: (Score: 2/5)
1. Utilize my Daily Agenda, where I write out my day every morning. I’d done this in the past, but stopped for some reason, and I want to get back into the groove.
2. Write the novella I’m going to give away for free with Aether Walker: Game Changer, or at least 2,000 words a day.
3. Edit 11,000+ words a day of the novel, so I finish this pass before 12/23/16.
4. Finalize graphics for the book launch.
5. Setup promotions for the book launch.
I did less than half of what I set out to do this week, but I did quit smoking on 12/21/16 at 12:03! Long term, that accomplishment will be worth more than anything else.
Goals For Next Week:
1. Finalize graphics for book launch.
2. Setup promotions for the launch.
3. Keep writing daily.
4. Wrap up the edits.
5. Don’t smoke!
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Nicholi A. K. Baldron
@NAKBaldron on twitter